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Hey Motivation, Where the Hell Did You Go?

So, today is one of those days I don’t feel like doing anything. I’m writing this, but lets face it, this is just one step up from a facebook note in terms of difficulty. That is the reason I love having this site, don’t get me wrong. It’s refreshing to have somewhere I can just vent my thoughts, where they don’t have to be fictional, and interesting, like a short story or a poem or the fucking book.
Speaking of the fucking book I’m writing, I need to finish the first draft. I am so sick of having the plot kicking around in my head. I guess an explanation is in order. You see, as this is my first book, and I’ve never written one before, I decided about a year ago to do the first draft out on paper first. I filled just about two, fifty page notebooks with words, before I, well I don’t even remember what happened, I think I just lost faith for a month and stopped writing in it.
I went back to reread what I’d written, and to my dismay not only did my scramblings not make a hell of a lot of sense, but since I’d written it all by hand and I have very sloppy handwriting, I could just barely read it. So, I mined through this draft, took the important elements I’d created, and scrapped the rest of the silly stuff, like outright song lyric rip offs and pointless back story about the main characters ancestor, that ultimately weren’t ever touched on again, so weren’t really worthy to be there, clouding up the story.
So, I started fresh last May, just typing the fucking thing into my computer, going from a brief amount of notes I took from the notebook first, first draft. I’m now around one hundred and fifty pages in, on technically my second draft, but I’m calling it the first draft, and my motivation is fledgling. I know, I’m a huge hypocrite, as I wrote a post earlier talking about how you just have to write, no matter how bad it seems. Sometimes, that’s easier said then done.
I’m not going to stop writing, I’m just at the point I’m sure a lot of novelists get to from time to time, where the initial burst of enthusiasm is gone, and I have to add a few more chapters, until the dynamite finish. But fuck, getting to these last chapters is like plodding through the mud. I have a bad attention span, so that’s part of it, but the other problem is the nature of the work. Its all first person, and this character has killed forty five already. Each kill has been, or at least was written to be, different then the others. The guy wants to kill as many people as he can, in as many different ways as he can. But, I tell ya, its getting harder and harder to think of fresh kills.
One way I helped myself, was by lowering my total length goal for the first draft. Initially I was planning around a 260 or 280 page first draft, but that just doesn’t seem neccesary. So, I cut my goal down to around 225 pages for the first draft. Now, I’m less worried about stretching out the narrative, and more focused around having the story dictate its own length. And if I finish before 225 pages? Well, I no longer care, as long as I have a good, solid framework to go off of, for the second draft when I can expand, and edit. Which will technically be the third draft, though I don’t count it as such.
I got some good advice from the internet about motivation, which helped me greatly. A simple google search can do wonders. Likewise, I’m on a facebook writers group, which helped. I got the advice of writing, even if it isn’t in the novel. That helped greatly, and is hence why I am writing this. Because, even if it isn’t one hundred percent related, writing anything will help your brain get into the writing zone. Same thing with reading, if you read anything, its easier to read something else later, if that makes any sense.
I listened to the audio book by Stephen King On Writing, which also gave me some good ideas. Let’s face it, if anyone knows about cranking out a novel, its Mr. King. The best thing I heard during the course of my listen, was that he gives himself about six weeks off when he is done with the first draft of a new book. This work method, which I plan to use, is making me much more motivated to finish. Because it means, when I’m done with the first draft of this book, I can finally take a break. From the character, and all the wracking of my brain I’ve had to do to come up with original kills, over and over and over again.
This is not my day. I just spilled coffee on my bed. Thats right, I’m writing this from my bed, so sue me. I wasn’t kidding when I said it was a day I didn’t feel like doing anything.

2 Responses to Hey Motivation, Where the Hell Did You Go?

  1. If you have time to “screw around” the net a bit, take a gander at Dan Simmons’ website, he has interesting (I think) things to say about ‘writing well’ (last nav tab on the top right). Plus he has Richard Curtis, his literary agent contribute his expertise on the publishing business.
    He has his own column there. Worth a look.

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